Hey...Well..The day is getting nearer where I need to make a final decision IM crying right now just writing this entry..I'm not feeling well because I'm too stressed up in life. I feel like everybody hates me. Especially from my second sister , its been along time we never talk since THAT DAY. I missed her so much ... Even thought we live in the same roof we don't even talk. She doesn't know how painful it is for me to keep up with this wall of silents between us both. I know my mistake and I understand if she angry at me or whatever but I hate this cold treatment she's giving me. I have nobody to talk to I'm just living in the world where I'm force to live in a dark hole where I'm not to be seen by others. I know people are disappointed in me but I'm just a human too I do make mistake , I'm so sorry ... Now I must think like an adult no more playing around think for the best of me and my future I need to work hard in my studies , hopefully I will get in to O level.