Tuesday, January 24, 2006
What i know that alot of people was angry/dissapointed in me. I know that i want to stop this thing . I dont want people get all stressed up and angry about the mistake i've had done. After this i know there still many responsiblity that i need to do and face but im sure i try my best to deal with it. Its kind of heart ache to see the family that im close to kind of hate me of what i had done recently. Im really sorry...its not that i want to dis-respect all of you,its just i need to stop this thing to stop.
i cant really explain what im going through right now but i know its too late to change it.
It really kills me to see my parents not to sleep every night just thinking about me and my grandparents keep on calling here asking about me and what am i going to do. I did stayed strong to my previous decision i even locked myself in my room so i wont be asked the same old qns again but in the end i lost the battle. If you guys dont come, i understand why but it really hurts me so much not to see you guys there the one i close to , the one i always loved and the one i have grown up with all this while. im really sorry...i hope this dicision i made i will not regret,if it does i wont forgive myself.
